Life lately

Procrastination/procrastinating has become the new order of the day in my life and it's funny how I've let it take control of what i love doing the most which writing and now I'm struggling to piece words together to form a sentence because i feel like my brain has been reduced to mush but I'll pull through by writing this edition of the newsletter with no hitches at all.

Let's delve in……

Social media addiction

Social media addiction is really a thing, at a point i felt weird if i stayed a moment without doom scrolling through my social media walls looking for the next available story to feed my eyes on despite complaining of the fast growing toxicity and vileness going on especially on X. Despite having a huge pile of books to read, podcast episodes to catch up on and tons of informative as well as documentary videos to watch, X became my second home, it affected my sleep cycle, attention span and a whole lot until i put my foot down and uninstalled every social media app on my phone except for whatsapp, my phone's homescreen looks weird without the app icons but I'll get used to it. So far, I'm trying to regain balance and control over my thoughts and being without the unknowing influence of the loud voices of X. You should probably try it too.

Nigerians are extremists

We Nigerians are too extreme and inconsiderate, if we start considering other people as humans that deserve to exist too, a semblance of sanity would appear in our dealings with each other but for now, it's a madhouse, let everyone move mad…

Here's why i said what i said above

Lack of respect for other people's space

In the compound where i stay currently, there are four apartment blocks each consisting of six flats, three above and three below of which i stay upstairs in one of the blocks, i had to explain that to give you the picture.

So very early in the morning as early as 5/6, the occupants in the next block play very loud music and stream live services without considering the other occupants and disrupting the peace of the environment. It's very annoying because one would think the music is coming directly from my apartment whereas it's the other block not even my block that it's coming from and as a result of that, i wake up with a headache, imagine waking up with a headache to start your day?

Lack of respect for order

Yesterday evening, i was at a store to get something with several other people too patiently waiting for their turn as it was only one attendant that was attending to customers, from nowhere this huge but obviously stupid bean sack of a human walks in and demands to be attended to, and in my mind i thought “is this one normal, so we standing here are fools abi” then i asked the attendant to pay him no heed because she was obviously flustered at the sound of his voice then the guy turns to me and asks what i said, then i proceed to calmly cuss him out in yoruba with the other customers around supporting me and he keeps quiet and awaits his turn.

Now, i find it absurd as to why people would be so self absorbed not consider others in their dealings and also want to break an order that was obviously in place before they got there? I'm honestly shocked at the people i share a country with because a part of my mind cannot comprehend the way some people think and act. I'm not perfect but events like this make me want to become a better person.

Ps. I really want to experience a working country with people that have sense and use it properly, is that too much to ask for?

Seeing the world through other people's lenses

Being a people person, meeting new people and having conversations with them as well as seeing the world through their lens is super exciting for me.

So yesterday i had a full blown conversation with a non-verbal person (deaf and dumb) and it was super cool, he told me about his girlfriend and how he navigates life as well as his business (he runs a laundry shop) and oh boy, this guy types fast even with a button phone. This actually taught me that life as well as the people in it are diverse and living in their reality (whatsoever they make of it).

My weird relationship with pictures

Not being a picture person is one thing and loving quirky pictures is another, photos where i make faces and look totally unserious are my favorites 😂, the typical smiling and serious pose photo is boring, i repeat, it's boring!

Having an expressive face like mine is (i don't know the word to use). I love pictures that capture the expressions on my face at the time be it smiling, puzzled, confused, angry, happy, frustrated and also the ones that capture the moments mid-motion either sharing jokes with a friend, yabbing someone, taking a walk, writing, whatever activity it is, just name it. I recently clocked that pictures like this evoke stronger emotions and memories as well as accurate events as you lay eyes on them. Sometimes too, i dislike pictures that i remember that my camera exists when I've gone months without taking a picture.

It's weird right

Personality conflicts

For as long as I've known, personality conflicts have been a part of my life and right now I'm caught up in a personality conflict, one minute i want to live quietly and be quiet, then the next, i want to live my life as loudly as i can and then again, i want to live like a book character that Chiemeke Garricks would write about, it's everything and anything at the same time, all i know is that I'm living life on my terms.

I think I'm done, see you in the next edition ✌️