Today (as at the time of this draft) is Sunday and I didn't cook Sunday rice, this tradition is gradually going extinct and I'm not happy about it….
When I become president, I'll mandate everyone to cook rice in all forms and types on Sundays 😅
New month
I didn't realize the month had ended until I received new month messages (which I still dislike by the way), well I'm grateful to have survived August because I stylishly saw shege and a whole lot actually happened infact let me let you in on a chain of events that happened in one day, my phone charger and laptop charger developed issues suddenly and my gas also finished, all in one day!!! I just couldn't cry. I hope September brings that positive energy into my life.
The correlation between time and pain
Time really does numb pain or something like that…
Time alone doesn't numb pain but the memory of a past pain can be reduced with the passing of time thus reducing it's perceived intensity. At the passing of time, the intensity of the pain reduces even though it's still there.
Now this applies to me, months have gone by since the breakup without me realizing it and I no longer tear up at the thought of him or what would've been neither does my chest hurt at the mere thought or triggers of him because I've let time do it's thing and I've gone with the flow.
I actually assume it happens this way with the loss of a loved one or parent (I've never experienced it so I do not know and I stand to be corrected).
Fear of the unknown
The school phase is almost over, I'm wondering what life after school is like and I'm also scared as well as curious on what the future holds in store for me, I'm scared of the unknown and I have so many “what if” questions running through my mind, I'm honestly bothered about mediocrity and not letting myself down. It's honestly a whole lot to process but I just have to keep calm and let nature run it's course.
Lost
I've been feeling lost in recent times and I honestly don't know what to do about it, it's like I'm detached from certain things, places and circles. I just need a break from this adulting thing and life in general and appear when I feel good again but this adulting thing requires that I show up everyday even when I do not feel like it. I need my daddy 🥺
Randoms
There's the innate desire for me to level up and I honestly don't know how to go about it but I'll find a way around it.
My neighbor’s generator has me battling serious migraines and I've complained for so long that it seems like I'm whining, I need ideas on what to do because this is becoming unbearable.
I've lost a lot of weight and my self consciousness is starting to creep in again that I can barely take full pictures or look at myself in the mirror.
My final exams are starting this month and I'm not prepared (I'm low-key panicking).
Male lecturers aren't beating the allegations at all, so I bumped into the man on my way back from seeing a friend last Saturday and we got into a convo and he ended it by making passes at me as well as going to the point of asking me to come to town so he could get me sharwama, sharwama o. How much is sharwama that I can't buy by myself abeg that i would have to go to town to meet a man, even in this my broke state, I won't reduce myself for crumbs (I'm still pissed thinking about this issue).
I'd really appreciate it if any of you wrote back to me via my email address, it'll be beautiful to hear from each and everyone of you. Here's my email address njokurita15@gmail.com
I can totally relate to this at the moment. I'm sending you hugs🤗 from this end. And also get ice cream it will help your head cool down small.
Take it one day at a time and don't forget to pray at this time it would really help a lot.
♥️&💡
I feel your pain...time really do heal everything